Catching up with Steven days 7 to 11 continued

Here I am.  So everything is going smoothly all in all except for one thing, or maybe two.  First of all, for some reasons I cannot speak to her about (she doesn't understand when I scream and have a tantrum) is when she wants me to walk on a leash.  As soon as I feel her hands going towards my collar after she picks me up I freak out to the extreme!!!  I scream, I roll over, I try to jump out of her arms.  But she doesn't let up.  So since day 7, every day we wrestle over putting the leash on.  I bit her once lightly, but she didn't like it and all of a sudden I felt her two fingers in my neck telling me to cut it out (body language remember) and got the leash on my collar once more.  Then she opens the door and if I have not already jumped out of her arms, she puts me down.  I try to tell her by freezing and refusing to move, that I don't want to do this.  She doesn't understand, or she doesn't care.  Today, the day after I bit her she used a different kind of leash.  This one was like a lasso and as she tried to slip it on over my head .  I fought as hard as I could but she did it and I screamed and squirmed and rolled over and over.  Its only for five minutes, but it seems like forever for me.  She is taking me for a bath and haircut and odds are she will take me home the way she brings me there if I have anything to say about it.  I am a nice dog and we like each other very much.  She is a good human, but I just don't understand why she keeps trying to have me do what I don't want to do.  She says she is trying to make me a happy, healthy, and housebroken dog so I can find a forever family and she can foster another thrown away dog.  I know I can do my part but not yet.  I am still very scared of all these changes in my life.  She said she is getting belly bands to put on me so I won't wet the floor!  I'm not sure she can get them on me.  Whatever belly bands are they might scare me too.  Keep your fingers crossed for Phyllis and me.  We have very big challenges every day and need all the luck we can get.  Thank you and I'll be back soon.

A shout out to Phyllis's old friend Natalie -  If you are reading this Happy Birthday a couple of days early.